| "You have such a pretty face, why don't you try dieting?" "i am your butter and your bread. the voice that's in your head. i'll take you in and fill you up with a lack of being fed"
PLEASE READ - VERY VERY IMPORTANT!!!!
i've had an xanga diary for only a month or two now, but i have gotten to know the girls (other anas/mias) very well. One in particular - bianka. Kind, funny, without a hurtful bone in her body. She would eat, and through it up later, so that she didnt hurt anyone's feelings *who ever cooked the meal*. A few days ago, Bianka died from a heart attack. Her brother, wade, posted a note on her xanga site, letting us all know. it hurt to find out that a girl who i connected with and related to so closely - even if only on the net - had died. And it was scary that she and i are so much alike. It brought me back to reality, if only for a little while, the severity of anorexia.
To anyone on here who can, get out now. I am stuck. My ed's have been a battle for me for the past 5 years, and i know nothing else anymore. But those of you who can, please. Anorexia and bulimia is something that takes over your whole mind and body. It has control. And it will do what it likes. At whatever cost.
>Anorexia is my life. My only friend. I would be nothing without it. It makes me happy, but it tears me up inside. Please dont let it take your life. If you have not already given your life to ana/mia,then don't. Please. i dont want to lose any of you like I did Bianka.<
Thank you for reading.
God saw that she was getting tired,
And a recovery was not to be.
So he put His arms around her
And whispered, "Come home with me."
With tearful eyes, we watched her suffer
And saw her fade away.
Although we loved her dearly,
We could not make her stay.
A golden heart stopped beating:
A determined spirit is at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.
**~~NEW~~** 30-03-04 Send me your email address, name, age, location, current weight and goal weight, and i will match you with an ana buddy!!!
30/03/04 I've added a heap of new links, added a flooble chat thing (i just like the name, lol) - which is below. It's an easy way to let people know if you're gonna be on a chat at a particular time etc. I've updated my journal - link above, AND I have put some of my pictures on an online photo album (the link is just below). Thanks to you guys who have signed my guestbook and sent me submissions, keep them coming. I'm also about to add some stuff on the 'hints and tips' section about negative calorie foods. Dont forget to sign my guestbook and tell me what you want.
26/03/04 Hey guys again. Look how many of you have visited! I've got a new journal here...but i only just set it up so it's got nothing in it. I've also now got a msg board, livechat, triggerpics, and some awesome links. Thanks also to those who signed my guestbook, and sent me submissions for "Your Creations". ~Ana hugz~ ~alisia
24-03-04 Hey guys, this is my new pro-ana and mia site, mainly focusing on Ana because thats what i am, but not discriminating against mia!
I really need your help to get this to be a website that you'll come back to. I need to know what you want to see. Sign my guestbook and let me know. Please, no hate mail. I know theres people who don't agree with being in support of eating disorders, or agree with eating disorders at all. WHY DID YOU COME HERE THEN? Click on that little red 'X' in the corner if you don't want to be tolerant of other people's beliefs.
Love you all ~ana (and mia) hugz~alisia